nice.

i know you mean well, i guess, but what you're saying sounds so in my face. Why are you comparing me to someone else when im not like them. Im not two faced, what you see is what you get. Im not even pushing you out, it's called I want space, you know how I deal with problems. Sometimes the advice you give me gets me even mad, just please, if I do something, don't be so offended. A coin is two sides, so is a relationship.Take a chance and have faith in me, even though I do wrong, give me time to show you what's right.
"fuck you" is what you said to me. Never expected that from you.
Know this, I deleted my twitter cause I got tired of being bashed on.
I tried to delete my tumblr cause I got tired of being a victim of other's vicious quotes but it wouldn't, so I just kept it.

Don't take this the wrong way, please. I know you're here for me, but sometimes I need to do things alone.

sigh.

wow, seems like everyone in the world is two faced. You think you know someone but you honestly don't. You think you're tight with someone, you think you have a strong relationship with someone, you share your inner thoughts and spill them all out but somehow, they just always tend to backstab you.After all you've done for a person, after you were there for them when they needed someone because you're a true friend and yet, they always tend to disappoint you. I don't deserve or need this kind of bullshit in my life, seriously. When people show you their true colours, usually you tend to believe them, well, I honestly can't. Im so skeptical about everything and everyone, all because throughout all the people i've encountered who seems to be "real" turns out to be a superficial bitch. Sorry, I don't mean to be rude or mean but im so tired of this. Whatever, I've learned so many things by peoples actions. Im done with all these people, seriously, I don't get a shit anymore, just please don't act like a real friend to me unless you understanding the meaning of being one.

P.S, sorry I hung up on the phone, im really annoyed right now, not by you but by everyone else.

im a "saw"

im such an asshole, fuck.
I should go back to being the quiet kid, the one who only said things if spoken to, who never spoke his mind and was super obnoxious, whos words werent venom and those words belittled and made others feel stupid,retarded, below, like an outcast. I wanna go back to being the quiet kid in the corner of parties, not the kid who didn't care what he said as long as he was heard, as long as he made his point, whether it was harsh or not. Who never said something just for a small chuckle at the expense at getting people pissed as fuck. Who never swore alot just to fit in.
I said I was gonna reinvent myself this summer, well I got alotta work to do, physically and mentally cause at the moment, im a wreck.

So to everyone i've hurt with something i've said, im genuinely sorry, from this point on i'll be better as a person. Feel free to hate, I don't blame you, I'll stay out of your life, it's probably best for you, not for me though.

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fuck blogspot HAHA.

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after what you said, I can't sleep,never will now.

it's been awhile.

PART A:
reflecting on what's happened, i've been such an idiot. See, on my way to getting what i've wanted my whole life, i've trampled on things that mean so much to me. I've killed friendships but i've killed a very important one. Im sorry. I shouldn't have put you in that position then just stopped talking to you. The reason I did was because I was wrong and I ran from my mistakes. I thought I was ready but I guess I was being stupid and selfish. I stopped talking to you because I didn't want to hurt you any further but I guess that didn't work out and yet, I still find myself talking to you in "that" way. I was trying to fill that "missing" piece but I shouldn't have tried to do that with you or a matter of fact, anybody. I want to be friends, it's just I don't think im worthy.

Word's can change your life,
but sometimes the word's you pick aren't right.
We have the word sorry to fix mistakes
but sometimes the sorries we say are fakes.
Im sorry for all the trouble i may have caused you,
but the moments we shared were true.
Im sorry I got you caught up in this crazy mess,
but what i am doing is trying my best,
And my rhyme scheme isn't that perfect,
but basically what im trying to do is correct
the hurt i've bestowed upon you,
and that's about it.

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HAPPY? HAHAHA. I'll revise this.. LATER.