random thoughts #3?

some day's I just want to keep you close, just spend my whole life talking, laughing and loving but some day's I just want to yell, shout and get you out of my life. If this is love, im not sure I do want to be in love. I know I can't ask for a friendship with rainbow's, gumdrops and unicorns but relationships can't start with bs from the start, it never works like that but the thing is, I was willing to do anything for a chance but when im so close to what i thought i wanted, it may not even be what i need. Theres a difference between want and need but for some people, they can't understand. I WANT this to work but I NEED you to listen. I NEED you to keep your end of the bargain, and I WANT you to be happy but I NEED you to UNDERSTAND that you can't act like you can get what you want in life. I NEED you to KNOW that im not trying to push you away, I WANT you to be with me my whole life, you're a trophy, you're a prize but some day's you act like such a snob. I WANT you to know that I don't mean to hurt you by saying these negatives but I NEED you to know that it's the only way I can get through to you. The thing we got right now, It's not working, I NEED you to know that when we mean compromise, WE MEAN com-PROMISE. Promise me you won't say those phrases and I promise you I won't either. I made a promise to myself that I would try my hardest not to hurt you, but the thing is by trying not to hurt you, I've said some "rude"(that's putting it in general) things to innocent people. This week has been hard and I thought you could make it better but you've been contributing cause honestly, I haven't been that mad before. Maybe i'll continue this later, I really need to finish my socials and study but yeeah, I just had this on my mind.

hey.

im fed up. shape up your attitude, then we'll get to talking.

random thoughts # 1.

i think i have my answer, i think i have the solution,
so infatuated that i can't seem to rhyme, but that's ok, i think you
get the point of this. I think i've got it, but then again i've been wrong
so many times. Baby i'd break boundaries and break the definition of happy
for you. I'll give you moments to remember, be all lovey-dovey only if you
let me. This connection, you are the missing star in my constellation leading
me to happiness, I wished on 7777 11:11's about this, so i hope lady faith's on my
side. I think i have my answer, i think we got something special. Flawed?
Flawless is what you are.

it's been awhile since i've felt this way.

shes like a star, sing her songs while playing my guitar,
serenade her with tunes sipping lemonade on a sunny afternoon,
you make me wanna be a better man ever since my love for you began,
Wear my heart on my chest while trying to impress, i give it my best,
and i'll never rest until i've won you over, more luckier than a four leaf clover,
you're the one I want by my side, you're my life and pride, A girl I see to be my bride.

mmhmm.

little ms.diane tran, im sorry that i ran
and so for awhile i felt self-condemnatory,
so i guess I should just share my story.
I didn't know that I hurt you when I made you choose,
when both choices were either to lose or lose, someone close
to you, and yes I was a fool for trying to play it cool,
but that's what guys do, and im sorry for doing that to you.
So once again im sorry for what i've done, this experience wasn't very fun,
and im sorry for making you play this game when it's just me to blame.

JustXtheniceGuy.

(not gonna rhyme this one)

Ended 09 wrong, just wish I could rewind four days back and left everything as it was, but I had to be a naive idiot.I thought it would be different, but I guess not. I fell in love with the wrong girl, cause she doesn't understand what i've done for her. Not even a single mention, sigh, guess things never change right? Acting like nothing happened, when it's the complete opposite and I got hijacked. It's different now between the one thing I didn't want to change, but change is inevitable right? (Sorry if i spelled inevitable wrong)

2010: FIX MATH GRADE(grades on general)
GET IN BETTER SHAPE.
FIND SOMEONE ELSE.
GET OVER HER.
__________________(secret one, it's funny though)

Who was there on those late nights when he left you heartbroken, and who was there to pick up the pieces and put them back together.